I'm bored

I have been on this journey for so long that I am now just bored. There seems to be no definitive answer to my transitioning conundrum. If I use not heat I have tangles at the root and crazy tangles on my ends. If I use heat then my roots are baby smooth but my mid hair to ends starts to feel really dry on day two and my scalp feels tight because of the heat.

I hate extensions and wigs because they bore me too quickly for the effort it takes to install them. I just feel like it's not worth the bother.

I am also bored of relaxed hair, it's the endless cycle of grow, perm, burn, heal, grow, perm....

So I am bored but I so not sure what to do. Scalp feels better without shampoo and hair feels moist without heat but styling remains a massive challenge. Starting to think I am going to have to make a hat to cover my hair so I for not have to deal with it any more.